Monday, April 30, 2007 ; 9:33 PM
i feel very thick-skinned to say this. but heck!
it's going to be my 18th birthday in 31 days!! hahaha.. and its probably going to be my most eventful, memorable, unforgettable and celebrated birthday in my whole life. okay maybe not celebrated. just because it falls on the same day as reverie III doesn't mean the main objective is to celebrate my birthday. but its definitely going to be the busiest. spending my entire birthday within the cultural centre building and rehearsing for the concert is kinda sad, not to mention tiring. but at least having something to do is better than having nothing to do (thinking back on my 17th birthday). i hope i get lots of presents and wishes then! :D
i've been more active in my blogging these days, hoping to compensate for the past month of blog neglect. heh.
i ponned school today. i didn't want to take that econs test cos i couldn't finish studying for it. half my class who were away in kuantan are taking on thursday so i thought i could take together with them. and its half day today cos of sports day. so it's definitely a good idea to decide to pon school. so i went out to study on my own at macs. it was pretty productive. but after 4.5 hours, i felt so depressed cos i had nobody to talk to. wahaha.. i couldn't talk/sing to myself in public can i? and i can't go to the toilet when i wanted, leaving my things behind. sigh. yeah so that's the downside of ponning school cos there isn't anybody you can call out to study with. :\
Sunday, April 29, 2007 ; 11:50 PM
i'm recently getting crazy over benji schwimmer!
i mean i've been supporting him all along throughout 'so you think you can dance 2' and was exhilarated when he was crowned america's favourite dancer.
and my real craze started on 24 april, one day before syf when i stumbled on his blog and discovered that he's coming to singapore. so i left a comment asking him what he's here in singapore for. thinking that i might be able to see him as one of the syf judge or something.
AND HE REPLIED ME!! ohmygosh. i realised he doesn't just reply to anybody's message la! and he told ME,
"no its for the finale performance on "The Dance Floor" then the next day im teaching workshops for Shawn and gladys dance studio then doing a private show and watching spiderman 3 privately."
*screams*!!!
watching him dance live in singapore's mediacorp studios for the dance floor grand finals was simply pure bliss.. :) even though separating us was just a television screen.
Friday, April 27, 2007 ; 11:39 PM
"We come with nothing but
we leave the stage, knowing
we've done everything.
Never stop believing."
we got a gold. many of us are sad. personally, i was disappointed. but mainly because of the failure to meet the expectations of people and the inability to maintain the standards set by the seniors. actually, a gold isn't that bad. just that it isn't good enough. it's only second best. i don't know how to describe the feeling. probably just gloomy. on seeing so many of my fellow dancers crying and being so sad, i was affected too but not as bad. probably because i had learned to cope with the many disappointments that i'd ever faced. is that good? the answer is probably arbituary.
syf judging is often subjective. but unfortunately, its everything. well, at least there's reverie III to press on for, to show everyone else the dance that we've been practising so hard for, to let the audiences see for themselves if the syf dance is truly a gold standard. well, if zaki thinks its good, its good enough. time to pick ourselves up and work hard at performing for a larger and more enjoyable audience on 31 may! =)
Tuesday, April 24, 2007 ; 9:08 PM
hi! long time no see. haha.. just so you know, this blog isn't dead yet. there had been so many things going on and too many things that's blog-worthy but i was afraid i'll spend too much time online blogging. :P but it didn't really matter cos i still spend quite a lot of time online, so what's the point actually. :\
i just can't say enough about my feelings for tomorrow. its the
big day! ohmanohman! its syf day tomorrow! i'm excitedscaredanxioushappynervous and going emotionally haywire!! i know i've ranted quite a few times about dance for the past few months. but this time, this time is serious. i need to vent out whatever's going through me now. i've never been so scared about my previous syf experiences before. maybe because i've never put in so much so much effort before, it had never been so tough, judging had never ever been so strict and expectations and standards had never been set so high. for me at least. but i really really want to do this. i really want to give it my best shot, to dance like never before, to have no regrets, to spend all my emotions on this and to dance the last syf in my whole life with the friends i love. tomorrow's the day. it's everything all of us have exchanged our 6 months of effort, all that we worked for. oh God, please unite the entire group together in this one goal in mind, that is to work towards the ultimate best of our abilities for this crucial and very last syf competition that we're ever going to have. i place it all in your hands.
